What My First YouTube Video Taught Me About Starting Before I Felt Ready
The fear before publishing your first video is real - and can be overcome.
On April 20, 2017, I uploaded what I was convinced was the worst video on YouTube because of my fear of publishing your first video.
Then I spent a week being afraid to look at it.
A small beginning counts.
Afraid to publish your first video? Start with one manageable step: record a short practice clip, address any privacy concerns, and decide what you want to learn. You don’t have to feel completely confident before beginning. Your first attempt can teach you something useful without being perfect.
I imagined nasty comments. People laughing. Strangers pointing at me in the street: “There she is! The lady who posted that horrible YouTube video!”
In my mind, I was already crawling into a corner, trying very hard to become invisible.
What actually happened was considerably less dramatic. And much more useful.
How a cat and some questionable music helped me to overcome the fear of publishing your first video
I had filmed myself at my neighbour’s, doing some basic Tai Chi.
Her cat wandered into the video. We were talking. Nothing fancy.
When I watched it back, I was horrified.
My movements! My outfit!
Who would want to watch this?
My neighbour also didn’t want her voice to be heard. Fair enough.
That gave me a practical problem to solve before I even got to my imagined public humiliation.
I could have deleted the whole thing.
Instead, I learned how to replace the audio with music. That took care of the conversation.
My choice of marching music was, in my opinion, about as well suited to gentle Tai Chi as my outfit was to a glamorous film debut.
But I had learned something. I had changed something. And now I had a video I could upload.
So I did.
One week later...
My YouTube channel was quite new. I was not a celebrity. Nevertheless, my imagination had assembled a substantial audience, all apparently waiting to judge me.
For a week, I didn’t dare check.
Eventually, curiosity won. I went back to see what had happened.
- Thousands of nasty comments?
- An unexpected flood of admirers?
Neither.
One view.
My own.
No one had even noticed!!
I had spent a week worrying about an audience that existed almost entirely in my head.
The relief was so enormous that I burst out laughing. Hysterically.
And, being a woman past menopause, that laughter left a little evidence in an inconvenient place.
Some victories call for a change of clothes...
A useful video after all
I hadn’t made something that attracted an audience that week. But I had made something immensely useful for me.
I knew how to replace an audio track. I knew how to upload a video.
Most importantly, I knew I could do something while feeling scared.
Before that, publishing a video had felt like a huge, mysterious threshold.
Afterwards, it was something I had actually done.
I could try again. I could learn another skill.
I could make the next video more useful to the person watching it.
And now that awkward little beginning has another purpose: I can show it to someone who thinks everyone else started out confident and competent.
Here it is, in all its beginner glory:
What are you waiting to feel ready for?
Perhaps you have a video sitting on your phone. Or an idea for a small business. Or a question you keep meaning to ask someone.
You may have plenty of experience helping other people, yet feel surprisingly uncertain when it comes to putting your own work out there. I know that feeling.
My story doesn’t mean nobody will ever criticise you. Nor does it mean every risk is worth taking. My neighbour’s privacy mattered, and I dealt with that before publishing.
But once the real concern was addressed, I could take a small step without waiting for every uncomfortable feeling to disappear.
You can do that too. Record a short practice video. Try generating a draft without publishing it. Ask one person whether your idea would be useful to them.
Choose something small enough to attempt, with consequences you understand and can manage. Then look at what happened, rather than only at what you feared might happen.
You don’t need to become a different person before you begin. You can begin as yourself, with something still to learn.
I certainly did. Cat, marching music and all.
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Frequently Asked Questions
Make a short practice recording without committing to publish it. You can record it on your phone. Share one useful idea, then watch it with a practical question: “What is one thing I could improve?” You can practice again or ask someone you trust for feedback. Public posting doesn’t have to be your first step.
Check that your message is understandable, the information is accurate, and you have permission to include anyone who appears or can be heard. Use music you have permission to use, too. Once those basics are covered, ask whether another edit would genuinely help the viewer or whether you’re waiting to feel completely ready.
Low views alone don’t tell you whether your idea is worthwhile. My first upload taught me how to edit and publish, even though the only view that week was my own. Notice what you learned, then choose one improvement for your next attempt: a clearer topic, a more useful explanation, or a title that tells people what to expect.
No. The phone you already have is usually good enough to get started. Wipe the lens, prop it securely at eye level, face a window for natural light, and choose a quiet spot. Record a short test to check that people can see and hear you clearly. You can consider extra equipment later, when you know what would actually help. For now, share one useful idea. You don’t need a studio to begin.
